Winter blues

The lack of sunlight. The cold weather. The winter season always provokes anxiety and depression of doom and gloom. Don't get me wrong. I enjoy some snow and winter clothes, but every year I hit the blues and it's hard to come out of it. It's hard to get up each day when I don't have insomnia. I'm not motivated to exercise,but instead to binge eat in the middle of the night. I do enjoy picking up a good book, but the only problem is that I can't put them down until I finish. A good cup of coffee, some Spark or adderol keeps me going throughout the day when I'm not working. When I do work seeing those little smiling faces and hearing their sweet voices keeps my brain temporarily occupied. When I don't have racing thoughts, music helps to drown out the noise. I'm always searching for new ways to occupy myself, which usually turn into expensive hobbies or unnecessary shopping trips. I have to accept that there are days that will be bad and I know I always make it through. There is a light. But until then, I will snuggle up in my favorite blanket and read some more.